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(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2008|01:36 am]
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lol the wine has caught up to me and leo is killing zombies alone and not doing well, this is great entertainment for the time being... all to the sound track of groove salad.  also a shih tzu is trying to seduce me... really i think she wants to go for a walk, she is a good bitch, literally and has a great personality.  Out walking the dog.
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(no subject) [Sep. 24th, 2008|11:52 pm]
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Wine+Nalgene=brilliant also = purple lips


All is well, a lot has changed, life is good but could be better.

Ciao
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no longer a virgin [Jul. 29th, 2008|05:04 pm]
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well it finally happened today, I experienced my first earthquake in LA, it was about 11:42 local time, i was in the bathroom about to get in the shower and I heard what sounded like someone pounding on the walls and hard then the floor raising and lowering in a very rapid way... kinda like waves in the ocean.  \thought i was going to die in the bathroom for a second realizing what was happening.  I stepped back from the counter and saw that the shower doors were swaying and that the water in the toilet was slashing about.  Later today I drove into Hollywood to get some things done, everything seemed normal but it is definitely a feeling i will never forget.

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(no subject) [Jun. 6th, 2008|01:32 pm]
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I kinda miss thunderstorms and rain, but i do love the sun I guess I cant have both.  
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2008|02:55 pm]
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I swear that Pretty (the shi tsu in the apartment) and I know each other in a past life.... or she is the reincarnation of van gogh due to the fact she only has one ear, probably a rough past in reality.  She loves me and will come and chill with me just cuz i am around and then when i walk in the door she is soooo excited to see me.  For a small dog she is great and she just makes me smile sometimes.
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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2007|04:31 pm]
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So I have eaten about a pound of dark m&m's in the last 2 days and am a bit tweekish a the moment and that is probably why I didnt go to bed till 3 last night and why i want to get up and run around like i am crazy...oh wait i am...what the hell im going to crash and it is going to suck but you know what i did it to my self....yep yep i did and im done now, really I am, i swear  i am so done and wired and done

 

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Oh what is to come? [Oct. 10th, 2007|04:53 pm]
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 As some of you know I was involved with making a short over Labor day weekend in and around the Cleveland Area.  It was for a contest for a horror network called Chiller TV that to my knowledge is only available on direct TV.  I received an email form them the other day asking for a high resolution version of the short. From what I can tell not everyone in the contest got this email and there is a hint on the chiller tv forum that those who got the email have a very good chance of having the short on tv.  This is fucking amazing if it is true, and I would be elated if something I did was on a national cable channel also the anticipation is killing me.  Regardless in typical brendan production fashion none of the paper work was done so I am "playing" producer from new york making sure all the correct agreements and releases that need to accompany the submission are completed.  Playing producer is in quotes because well that is my weak point with respect to filmmaking...well i think it is at least.  Oh ya for those of you that dont know I am in NYC chasing the dream of becoming a director of photography, still looking for work but things are shaping up to be very promising.  anyway I dont know why this short is doing well for we through it together in about a week and I know I am not the strongest editor and I was rushed to get the project done and turned in.  For those of you who knew I was very down about a lot of things last weekend things seem to be looking up at the moment and well I can only hope that Reflections makes it on the Air.  Oh an one more thing one of the papers at kent state might be doing an article on it, though I am not completely sure about this. 

For those of you that voted a huge thank you and for those whom have always had faith in my ability to do whatever it is I do another huge thank you!!!  This is just the beginning of long journey to get to where I would like to be in life.


 

Link to reflections if you would like to see it again though the web does nothing for it...the DVD looks a hell of a lot better:

http://www.chillertv.com/Dare_To_Direct/Video_Gallery/31550.shtml


 

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(no subject) [May. 28th, 2007|10:14 pm]
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I don’t understand why it hurts so much this time.  All I want is the one thing I cant have and well she doesn’t trust me anymore because I broke up with her and well I know now that I shouldn’t have but it happened and I have not been the best boyfriend to her but you don’t know what you have until it is gone.  I am now attempting to choose a path in life for myself, wither it is with her or not I don’t know as now.  I am still an emotional mess and I just don’t know what to do, I feel like shit more than half the time and I feel like I need to figure things out before I make a move anywhere.  I am just so confused and the one thing I do know is that I love her but I also know that I want to attempt to change the world through my art, I want to make a difference and become part of something that is greater than myself and make an attempt to open peoples eyes to how things really are and possibly bring about change.  Is this realistic...probably not but I can try, I can try to make to make art with a propose, something that has significance, and yet I can’t do it because I am here with my heart torn, not knowing what to do.

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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2007|10:16 pm]
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Happy birthday mom! I miss you so much but i know you are still with me...thank you for making me the person I am.
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An end [Apr. 15th, 2007|11:51 pm]
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I am tired of fighting
I am tired of worrying
I am tired of hurting people
I am tired of knowing that things are not going to work out
I am tired of not knowing what to do
I am tired of attempting to save what I cant have
I am tired of fucking my self and others over
I am tired of living up to someone elses expectations of me
I am tired
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